Today began great! I got some sleep last night! :D After this past crazy weekend, it was definitely needed! Classes resumed after the Thanksgiving break. I missed my morning class, but got my homework for it turned in. Calculus this after noon was pretty good, interesting as usual...
After my calculus class my friend and I had planned to study because we have our last chapter exam for calculus Thursday and Friday. I had to go see the apartment that was still available (I missed out on my cute little one with the wooden floors :'( ) and turn in the application for it, so she went with me.
While we were waiting to check out the apartment we went to grab a bite to eat at Panara Bread, which is just across the street. I ate half of a panini and then we headed over to meet L, the leasing agent. She showed me the apartment, up on the 4th floor. It had the best carpet of all the others I had seen previously. I went ahead and said that's the one I'll take. After we were done there we drove to the management office. It was just around the corner and down a few blocks, not too far. While I was sitting there filling out the application there was so much going on, I was pretty close to saying forget it! People who were sitting in an office close by had all kinds of things to say about people who were calling... The guy who said, "If you have any questions just let me know." Seemed quite irritated and in a hurry to get away when I did actually have a couple questions... It was quite the experience. I had never been in a place like that before. They just didn't seem like any of the property management places I have ever worked for or been to in the past. Oh well, I desperately need to get away from here so I didn't let it all get to me too bad.
After I finished my application for the apartment we headed back to campus to study. We both still had our food from Panara because we didn't have time to eat at all. We sat down in one of the lounges of the Engineering building and began doing calculus problems. It is pretty nice working with my friend, Kay because she is patient and understanding when explaining things I don't quite get. There are also somethings that she may not get right away that I can explain to her. This helps I think both of us when we work together through problems. After studying for a few hours we decided we needed some coffee! We went over to the student union, bought some Starbucks, then got right back to work on Calculus. We only got half of the section done though :-/. We will do much more tomorrow. I completely lost focus and had to just call it a night. I will read tonight before I go to bed so hopefully tomorrow we can get more done.
I don't really remember much of the drive home... I was pretty tired from the long day of studying, extremely excited about my apartment so close to campus, and trying to go over calculus stuff in my head the entire drive. When I got back into town I was so excited to tell someone about my apartment! I text one of my best friends to see if he wanted to go to Ihop, but he had already eaten... So I just told him via text, which wasn't that exciting then. As soon as I got home I text another friend to see if he was talkable, thought this time I'd just call and tell someone myself so my excitement wasn't dulled... That didn't go so well, I just ended up making him mad so now he won't talk to me at all :'(... (Not surprising since he took something I text sarcastically seriously.... Which had it been another day and I was actually upset/depressed, I could have said it seriously, but that definitely wasn't the case tonight.) Anyways, apparently he wasn't in a good mood. Oh well.. So anyways, I just told my dad. He is sick though, and I don't think he really cares so all my excitement has completely been flushed down the drain... And people wonder why I am cynical. What's the point when you have no one to share anything with??
So now I am going to just read my Calculus book until I fall asleep. Tomorrow is a new day, hopefully will be a much better day (from beginning to end)! I have a lunch date, then off to Lincoln to study more for my test with my friend, and then to the UNL basketball game! :D I am super excited about that!! Another friend of mine who is also a basketball fan and player is going to go with me! I can't wait! Then maybe to B-Dubbs for wings?? The Engineers without Boarders has a fundraiser going on there where if you eat there 10% of the bill will go towards the group! I am joining the EWB-UNL group too so I am definitely going to try to go support them!
Things will be looking up again soon enough. I will be able to move forward and get over people as soon as I get out of here and I can not wait.
"There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving... and that's your own self."
Monday, November 29, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Working Weekend
So I don't have much of a comment about Thanksgiving. However, I hope everyone enjoyed their Turkey Day! Mine was interesting to say the absolute least...
This morning it was up bright and early to return to work. I am here until 11p and then back in the morning at 7 a.m. again. I am working a double tomorrow as well. Sunday I also work 7a-11p. I hope this goes by fast. Though I gladly cover for everyone, I am not all that excited about not being able to study this weekend.
I have a Calculus test Thursday and Friday this next week. I have tons of studying and homework to do in order to do well. This is our last chapter exam before our final. I also have an extra credit project I need to begin and finish as soon as possible. Monday I am pretty excited because I am going to put down a deposit and application for my new apartment (hopefully). I am just ready to be back out on my own again. Not that I don't appreciate my father for allowing me to stay with them while I am in school, I will just do much better in my own space.
I have began practicing/attempting the Chakra meditation. I will work on each chakra center, one at a time until I am able to successfully meditate and balance all of them. One more thing to add to the benefits list of having my own place! :) Though I did feel a bit more centered after, I definitely have a ways to go in order for it to have the positive and lasting effects it should. I am pretty excited about it. I was speaking with my brother about it, and he has some books that I will be able to borrow in order to learn and research more about the Chakra as well as other various forms of meditation.
So back to school stuff... I have tons of studying to do for Thursday and Friday's test. I need to get the motor I have been building done finally by Friday. I have homework due Monday, which I forgot :0... Ooops, guess I'll get that done tonight. One of my very few friends here in Omaha is moving to Kansas next week too. I am prety bummed. Oh well, I guess I'm moving to Lincoln now so that wont be so bad.. I think I'll be closer to him anyways. On top of all that, I have my very last Rotaract meeting of the year Wednesday evening. So next week is rather busy!
I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend and had a nice holiday break! I'm sure I'm forgetting things that will pop up beginning Monday so I will definitely keep everyone posted!
"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us 'universe', a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."
-Albert Einstein
This morning it was up bright and early to return to work. I am here until 11p and then back in the morning at 7 a.m. again. I am working a double tomorrow as well. Sunday I also work 7a-11p. I hope this goes by fast. Though I gladly cover for everyone, I am not all that excited about not being able to study this weekend.
I have a Calculus test Thursday and Friday this next week. I have tons of studying and homework to do in order to do well. This is our last chapter exam before our final. I also have an extra credit project I need to begin and finish as soon as possible. Monday I am pretty excited because I am going to put down a deposit and application for my new apartment (hopefully). I am just ready to be back out on my own again. Not that I don't appreciate my father for allowing me to stay with them while I am in school, I will just do much better in my own space.
I have began practicing/attempting the Chakra meditation. I will work on each chakra center, one at a time until I am able to successfully meditate and balance all of them. One more thing to add to the benefits list of having my own place! :) Though I did feel a bit more centered after, I definitely have a ways to go in order for it to have the positive and lasting effects it should. I am pretty excited about it. I was speaking with my brother about it, and he has some books that I will be able to borrow in order to learn and research more about the Chakra as well as other various forms of meditation.
So back to school stuff... I have tons of studying to do for Thursday and Friday's test. I need to get the motor I have been building done finally by Friday. I have homework due Monday, which I forgot :0... Ooops, guess I'll get that done tonight. One of my very few friends here in Omaha is moving to Kansas next week too. I am prety bummed. Oh well, I guess I'm moving to Lincoln now so that wont be so bad.. I think I'll be closer to him anyways. On top of all that, I have my very last Rotaract meeting of the year Wednesday evening. So next week is rather busy!
I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend and had a nice holiday break! I'm sure I'm forgetting things that will pop up beginning Monday so I will definitely keep everyone posted!
"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us 'universe', a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."
-Albert Einstein
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Tuesday...
This morning began bright and early with a trip out to West Point, NE. J and I went to install a wind turbine at the school there. The entire operation did not go smoothly at all. It was incredibly cold outside (which I am still not at all use to yet) and things just seemed to go all wrong. It was a very long day, a lot of heavy lifting, a lot of toes freezing, a lot of wind burn, and a lot of obstacles. We finally got it up right before the sun went down. We tried to hurry and the whole thing just took so much longer than either of us had anticipated. Oh well, we got it up! It is for a great cause, and I think the students who came out for a little bit and tried to help enjoyed the exposure. I guess I can't really complain... After all, we got it up, no one got hurt, and it is done.
When I got home I arrived to a house full of about 3/4 of the family that is coming for Thanksgiving this week. Everyone was sitting around the table chatting away... My dad and his brother broke out a bottle of scotch, while I broke out the vodka and tonic! I do better in the family-social situations with some help most of the time, sad but true. Anyways, so everyone chatted, then ended up sitting the family room watching TV and movies.
After everyone went to bed my cousin and I went for a drive. We stopped at Ihop for a few hours and chatted about all kinds of things. We pretty much came to the conclusion that both of us have issues! Lol. Isn't that great, as if I didn't know all ready. ;P After we were done listening to our waiter complain about his poor tips he was receiving all night (due completely to his poor service) we decided it was time to head out. We went for another drive around chatting some more about school, boys, and life... When we got back home we said goodnight and I'm sure she is probably sound asleep by now, while I'm here blogging because I can't sleep. :)
Before I decided to start blogging tonight I was checking my facebook (of course :P) and chatted with one of my good friends! We went to school together back in Texas. He is now deployed overseas. We were only able to chat for a short period of time, but it was so great to hear from him! I always considered him one of my best buddies. We played basketball together, could always talk about stuff together; he was a pretty good catch! He is married now, which is great! His wife looks so sweet too! It makes me so happy when good people end up with good people. I miss him... He totally owes me a basketball game too from way back when! :D
So, on another note... My class schedule has been altered again due to credit issues in the spring. I ended up having to pick up a class that is offered Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays. This means back to 5 days of classes per week, and yep! back to moving to Lincoln. I will call Monday and see if the apartment I originally wanted is still available. If so I am going to go put down the deposit and application stuff. I really need to get out of here; I think it'll be best for everyone... For me.
"Why do you suppose nearly every quote about Love has some reference to Pain in it? Could it be because love is something that does or cannot exist without pain? If this pain is what I feel after I have loved, I never want to love again. I see it as a mistake, a huge, painful mistake that I have definitely learned a great lesson from."
When I got home I arrived to a house full of about 3/4 of the family that is coming for Thanksgiving this week. Everyone was sitting around the table chatting away... My dad and his brother broke out a bottle of scotch, while I broke out the vodka and tonic! I do better in the family-social situations with some help most of the time, sad but true. Anyways, so everyone chatted, then ended up sitting the family room watching TV and movies.
After everyone went to bed my cousin and I went for a drive. We stopped at Ihop for a few hours and chatted about all kinds of things. We pretty much came to the conclusion that both of us have issues! Lol. Isn't that great, as if I didn't know all ready. ;P After we were done listening to our waiter complain about his poor tips he was receiving all night (due completely to his poor service) we decided it was time to head out. We went for another drive around chatting some more about school, boys, and life... When we got back home we said goodnight and I'm sure she is probably sound asleep by now, while I'm here blogging because I can't sleep. :)
Before I decided to start blogging tonight I was checking my facebook (of course :P) and chatted with one of my good friends! We went to school together back in Texas. He is now deployed overseas. We were only able to chat for a short period of time, but it was so great to hear from him! I always considered him one of my best buddies. We played basketball together, could always talk about stuff together; he was a pretty good catch! He is married now, which is great! His wife looks so sweet too! It makes me so happy when good people end up with good people. I miss him... He totally owes me a basketball game too from way back when! :D
So, on another note... My class schedule has been altered again due to credit issues in the spring. I ended up having to pick up a class that is offered Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays. This means back to 5 days of classes per week, and yep! back to moving to Lincoln. I will call Monday and see if the apartment I originally wanted is still available. If so I am going to go put down the deposit and application stuff. I really need to get out of here; I think it'll be best for everyone... For me.
"Why do you suppose nearly every quote about Love has some reference to Pain in it? Could it be because love is something that does or cannot exist without pain? If this pain is what I feel after I have loved, I never want to love again. I see it as a mistake, a huge, painful mistake that I have definitely learned a great lesson from."
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday Fun Day!
This morning I, as usual, missed class. My friend told me it wasn't worth going to anyways. I'm not printing off all the assignments and notes from the class. After this Thanksgiving break I won't miss anymore. I need to do well in that class. I don't have too much great things happening so far this semester and that class is the easiest, so might as well go through the motions and do well.
This afternoon I did make it to my Calculus III class. That is however my favorite class. Not to mention it's in the afternoon so I still get some sleep before having to go. Makes attendance much easier. ;) So today he told us he was nearly done with our extra credit stuff. He posted a proof for us to read and understand in order to solve the problems he is creating for us... I'm thinking this is going to be extremely difficult. I will have to get help I'm sure. My passing the class depends on this so I can't risk not getting it done.
So after class today I went up to the lab to continue working on this motor I've been building. I finished gluing all the magnets on, that was quite time consuming. However, the very last set of magnets we need to get on will not take too much time. That I have to wait for Dr. P to help because it will definitely take two people. These are crazy heavy duty industrial magnets. They are incredibly strong so it is quite difficult to handle them at a certain point. I'm pretty exciting about it all. It will be great when it's all done. I hope J, who's design it is, will be happy with the real thing.
On my way home from Lincoln today it was quite entertaining. It was pretty late by the time I was done and able to leave campus. So naturally, it was dark and pretty cold out. So I'm driving down the highway, jamming out to my favorite radio station, which by the way plays music for the longest time ever without commercial breaks, and my windows begin fogging up. I was so busy singing up a storm and rocking out that I didn't even notice until it was real bad and I nearly couldn't see out! Lol, it was pretty bad. On top of this, when I got to the main road off the highway that leads to my neighborhood I hit a couple red lights. Still jamming out to my radio, rather loudly, I hadn't noticed a police car following me. And of course, the inevitable... I got stopped. But not for speeding, no. The officer said I was wailing around in my car at the light and he thought I was drunk!! Well as soon as I rolled down my window and he heard my loud radio blaring, "Another One Bites the Dust", I guess he figured out why I was rocking my car. He laughed at me and told me I should be careful jamming out so hard, I may hurt myself! Talk about embarrassing! Wow, what a day!
Today was actually a very good day. I got a hold of one of my good friends, I am going to get some advice on cleansing my aura, and becoming well grounded. I need something to help me get focused. I am even in the process of finding meditation beads and learning ways of meditation. I'm pretty open to anything at this point. I need to change something. I need to become slow to emotionally reacting. I need to fist try to understand. I need to focus. I need to be more mindful of my surroundings, other people, and situations. There are just so many things that I desperately want to engage in, mindfulness and understanding are two big ones. I feel if I can accomplish everything listed, then I will be successful.
Tomorrow I will be going up to West Point, NE to install a turbine with my "boss", J. He emailed me earlier this afternoon, said he would pick me up at 8:30a tomorrow... We'll see. I tried to confirm, but he never responded. I'll be up and ready and if he doesn't come then I have that much more time to work on the basement for the fam-damily ;P.
Anyways, I believe people begin migrating in tomorrow so let the fun begin! I am just ready for this week to come and go. I am working so much the entire week that I just hope I get through it alive... and sane.
I am going to try to get some sleep now. I'm kind of hoping J doesn't come tomorrow, but I guess we'll find out! Hope everyone has a fantastic Thanksgiving!
Metaphysical Poem
once upon a time
there was a zen
just one zen
existential, invisible
metaphysical, physical
life-like and pure
just one zen,
this zen grew up
to be all there is
sharing itself
with itself
playing at
being many
once upon a time
and always upon
an eternity
-http://www.short-zen-poems.com/
© Benjamin Dean - Monday, November 08, 2010
This afternoon I did make it to my Calculus III class. That is however my favorite class. Not to mention it's in the afternoon so I still get some sleep before having to go. Makes attendance much easier. ;) So today he told us he was nearly done with our extra credit stuff. He posted a proof for us to read and understand in order to solve the problems he is creating for us... I'm thinking this is going to be extremely difficult. I will have to get help I'm sure. My passing the class depends on this so I can't risk not getting it done.
So after class today I went up to the lab to continue working on this motor I've been building. I finished gluing all the magnets on, that was quite time consuming. However, the very last set of magnets we need to get on will not take too much time. That I have to wait for Dr. P to help because it will definitely take two people. These are crazy heavy duty industrial magnets. They are incredibly strong so it is quite difficult to handle them at a certain point. I'm pretty exciting about it all. It will be great when it's all done. I hope J, who's design it is, will be happy with the real thing.
On my way home from Lincoln today it was quite entertaining. It was pretty late by the time I was done and able to leave campus. So naturally, it was dark and pretty cold out. So I'm driving down the highway, jamming out to my favorite radio station, which by the way plays music for the longest time ever without commercial breaks, and my windows begin fogging up. I was so busy singing up a storm and rocking out that I didn't even notice until it was real bad and I nearly couldn't see out! Lol, it was pretty bad. On top of this, when I got to the main road off the highway that leads to my neighborhood I hit a couple red lights. Still jamming out to my radio, rather loudly, I hadn't noticed a police car following me. And of course, the inevitable... I got stopped. But not for speeding, no. The officer said I was wailing around in my car at the light and he thought I was drunk!! Well as soon as I rolled down my window and he heard my loud radio blaring, "Another One Bites the Dust", I guess he figured out why I was rocking my car. He laughed at me and told me I should be careful jamming out so hard, I may hurt myself! Talk about embarrassing! Wow, what a day!
Today was actually a very good day. I got a hold of one of my good friends, I am going to get some advice on cleansing my aura, and becoming well grounded. I need something to help me get focused. I am even in the process of finding meditation beads and learning ways of meditation. I'm pretty open to anything at this point. I need to change something. I need to become slow to emotionally reacting. I need to fist try to understand. I need to focus. I need to be more mindful of my surroundings, other people, and situations. There are just so many things that I desperately want to engage in, mindfulness and understanding are two big ones. I feel if I can accomplish everything listed, then I will be successful.
Tomorrow I will be going up to West Point, NE to install a turbine with my "boss", J. He emailed me earlier this afternoon, said he would pick me up at 8:30a tomorrow... We'll see. I tried to confirm, but he never responded. I'll be up and ready and if he doesn't come then I have that much more time to work on the basement for the fam-damily ;P.
Anyways, I believe people begin migrating in tomorrow so let the fun begin! I am just ready for this week to come and go. I am working so much the entire week that I just hope I get through it alive... and sane.
I am going to try to get some sleep now. I'm kind of hoping J doesn't come tomorrow, but I guess we'll find out! Hope everyone has a fantastic Thanksgiving!
Metaphysical Poem
once upon a time
there was a zen
just one zen
existential, invisible
metaphysical, physical
life-like and pure
just one zen,
this zen grew up
to be all there is
sharing itself
with itself
playing at
being many
once upon a time
and always upon
an eternity
-http://www.short-zen-poems.com/
© Benjamin Dean - Monday, November 08, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Thanksgiving Week Begins
So today is a day of cleaning... I have to get the basement all cleaned for the entire Fam-Damily to come for Thanksgiving. I woke up feeling pretty bad this morning, I have so much to do and I am going to just kill myself this week with school and work. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I tried to get people to cover at least part of my shift for work this evening and of course, as usually no one can, or at least most of them won’t even respond to a phone call. It is funny you help out all the time covering shifts for people, and the very few times you need help absolutely no one is willing to lend a hand. I'm not a fan of most of my co-workers anymore... I'm pretty sure it is time to find a new job (Hopefully in Lincoln).
So anyways, yesterday was a pretty good day. After bell ringing for the Salvation Army with my friend and her son, I dropped them off at home and went to meet up with a couple friends for sushi. I had a great time. I love sushi, and I love just being out all day. I am definitely NOT a home-body... I have moments when I don't want to go anywhere, but that is due to being depressed, sick, or tired, not really because I like being home ever. So after I got home I stayed up for a bit and then finally fell asleep on my calculus book. That maybe why I woke up with such a horrible headache this morning. :-/
Anyways, so the rest of the day will be filled with cleaning, working, and then cleaning some more all night long, and hopefully squeeze in some more studying. I will probably be pulling an all-nighter. I am not really looking forward to that because tomorrow is going to be such a long day with classes, working in the lab, and then homework/studying with my friend.
So I'm keeping myself busy now. Things are getting pretty hectic with work and school. I am very ready for the semester to just be over with already. December will probably be long and rough with not a lot going on either than work the last half.
I have so much going on inside my head it is impossible to describe to anyone. At this moment I am wishing the entire past year had never happened... I've lost three friends this year through various events, I screwed up what could have been something really great, and I don't know how to fix it exactly. I should go around to high schools and let them know how screwed up I am and tell them to continue full-time through school so they won't end up like me. Blah, blah, blah... Bad day to be blogging!
Maybe tomorrow will be bright and sunshiny and I can blog in a positive light then. Today's messages:
1. Don't date someone you like more than they like you. Never get attached.
2. Don't take anytime off b/n H.S. and college, go straight through full-time until completed.
3. Don't expect anyone to help you out. That way if someone actually does it'll be a pleasant surprise.
It's funny because I get so upset and depressed about the way things are going then I'll read some more about Buddhism and it all seems to fade...
"it's not necessary to try to become your true self. you can't be anything else. it's impossible to be other than what we truly are - and what we are changes moment to moment. but because our tendency to grasp is so strong, it may take us some time to learn to trust and relax into our unfixed nature. ego wants to be substantial and special, and it will try to possess each new realization and insight. when ego grasps at the gains we've made, we will suffer the consequences. most of us fall into this trap many times before finally seeing that grasping is futile and admitting to ourselves, 'ah, maybe i really am zero, nothing special!' when we make practice our life, we can expect to encounter many traps and sticking places. yet we can make this an honorable part of our practice by remaining watchful and letting go each time we become stuck. by returning to zero again and again, we gradually close the gap and actualize our unfathomable true nature."
-Genpo Roshi, the path of the human being
So anyways, yesterday was a pretty good day. After bell ringing for the Salvation Army with my friend and her son, I dropped them off at home and went to meet up with a couple friends for sushi. I had a great time. I love sushi, and I love just being out all day. I am definitely NOT a home-body... I have moments when I don't want to go anywhere, but that is due to being depressed, sick, or tired, not really because I like being home ever. So after I got home I stayed up for a bit and then finally fell asleep on my calculus book. That maybe why I woke up with such a horrible headache this morning. :-/
Anyways, so the rest of the day will be filled with cleaning, working, and then cleaning some more all night long, and hopefully squeeze in some more studying. I will probably be pulling an all-nighter. I am not really looking forward to that because tomorrow is going to be such a long day with classes, working in the lab, and then homework/studying with my friend.
So I'm keeping myself busy now. Things are getting pretty hectic with work and school. I am very ready for the semester to just be over with already. December will probably be long and rough with not a lot going on either than work the last half.
I have so much going on inside my head it is impossible to describe to anyone. At this moment I am wishing the entire past year had never happened... I've lost three friends this year through various events, I screwed up what could have been something really great, and I don't know how to fix it exactly. I should go around to high schools and let them know how screwed up I am and tell them to continue full-time through school so they won't end up like me. Blah, blah, blah... Bad day to be blogging!
Maybe tomorrow will be bright and sunshiny and I can blog in a positive light then. Today's messages:
1. Don't date someone you like more than they like you. Never get attached.
2. Don't take anytime off b/n H.S. and college, go straight through full-time until completed.
3. Don't expect anyone to help you out. That way if someone actually does it'll be a pleasant surprise.
It's funny because I get so upset and depressed about the way things are going then I'll read some more about Buddhism and it all seems to fade...
"it's not necessary to try to become your true self. you can't be anything else. it's impossible to be other than what we truly are - and what we are changes moment to moment. but because our tendency to grasp is so strong, it may take us some time to learn to trust and relax into our unfixed nature. ego wants to be substantial and special, and it will try to possess each new realization and insight. when ego grasps at the gains we've made, we will suffer the consequences. most of us fall into this trap many times before finally seeing that grasping is futile and admitting to ourselves, 'ah, maybe i really am zero, nothing special!' when we make practice our life, we can expect to encounter many traps and sticking places. yet we can make this an honorable part of our practice by remaining watchful and letting go each time we become stuck. by returning to zero again and again, we gradually close the gap and actualize our unfathomable true nature."
-Genpo Roshi, the path of the human being
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Lovely Saturday
This morning began just as any usual Saturday morning... Woke up about every hour all night long worried of oversleeping. I got my wake up call about 5:30a from my co-worker who works the over night. Then I got a text from one of my best friends at about 6:00am. That was quite an exciting text talk...
I won't go into that, however, I must say it is nice to have friends to cheer you on in certain situations. I can always count on him to tell me what I need to hear in order to follow through with stuff outside the comfort zone. (Not that I usually need help in that department.. Really only when it comes to boys is when I don't know what to do.)
Anyways, the semester is nearly over and I still have so much I need to do in order to get ahead here. I picked up tons of hours for this next week over Thanksgiving, as well as tons of hours over Christmas-New Years time. Hopefully all the extra hours will help me get ahead a bit on some bills or even help create the cushion I need for gas to commute back and forth to Lincoln.
This next semester I got all my classes down to two days so I don't have to move and hopefully I will be doing better from then on out. I will be able to save lots of money hopefully. Now that things have gone the way they have this past year I have decided to begin saving my escape fund. This way as soon as I am done with school I can pick up and move somewhere right away and not have to wait around Nebraska much longer after. There are a couple different places now that are on the list. I can't wait to be done and gone.
Now that I have gotten over my summer love I am throwing any possibility of anything like that out the window completely until I am done with school. I just don't have the room in my mind for boys anymore. I am completely focused on school now and nothing will change that now.
I made some new friends this past week! I am excited to get into some sort of social life now. Most of my new friends are PhD students or people who have already graduated now. Which is good in so many ways and at the same time not so much. The factor that they leave when they are done with their PhD or the others who work normals jobs during the day. Schedule conflicts, time availability, and all kinds of things go into determining the level of friendship that is truly obtainable. Anyways, this week was just fantastic. Next week is going to be a long one, but I'm ready for it.
Things are looking up now... I'm pretty stoked about it all, however, I do wish I was able to go back and have my friend here in Omaha as often as I used to. its funny how if people wanted to, they would make time for you; And in the beginning they do and then all of a sudden it's gone. Just like that, no more time. No more interest in anything. People are funny things: emotions, thoughts, feelings, hope, and understanding... All the things that either build a strong friendship or completely tear it apart. I don't think I am cautious enough, maybe I would still have people in my life had I thought things through completely before. Meh, back to school, Focus!
Every beginning is a consequence - every beginning ends some thing.
~Paul Valer
I won't go into that, however, I must say it is nice to have friends to cheer you on in certain situations. I can always count on him to tell me what I need to hear in order to follow through with stuff outside the comfort zone. (Not that I usually need help in that department.. Really only when it comes to boys is when I don't know what to do.)
Anyways, the semester is nearly over and I still have so much I need to do in order to get ahead here. I picked up tons of hours for this next week over Thanksgiving, as well as tons of hours over Christmas-New Years time. Hopefully all the extra hours will help me get ahead a bit on some bills or even help create the cushion I need for gas to commute back and forth to Lincoln.
This next semester I got all my classes down to two days so I don't have to move and hopefully I will be doing better from then on out. I will be able to save lots of money hopefully. Now that things have gone the way they have this past year I have decided to begin saving my escape fund. This way as soon as I am done with school I can pick up and move somewhere right away and not have to wait around Nebraska much longer after. There are a couple different places now that are on the list. I can't wait to be done and gone.
Now that I have gotten over my summer love I am throwing any possibility of anything like that out the window completely until I am done with school. I just don't have the room in my mind for boys anymore. I am completely focused on school now and nothing will change that now.
I made some new friends this past week! I am excited to get into some sort of social life now. Most of my new friends are PhD students or people who have already graduated now. Which is good in so many ways and at the same time not so much. The factor that they leave when they are done with their PhD or the others who work normals jobs during the day. Schedule conflicts, time availability, and all kinds of things go into determining the level of friendship that is truly obtainable. Anyways, this week was just fantastic. Next week is going to be a long one, but I'm ready for it.
Things are looking up now... I'm pretty stoked about it all, however, I do wish I was able to go back and have my friend here in Omaha as often as I used to. its funny how if people wanted to, they would make time for you; And in the beginning they do and then all of a sudden it's gone. Just like that, no more time. No more interest in anything. People are funny things: emotions, thoughts, feelings, hope, and understanding... All the things that either build a strong friendship or completely tear it apart. I don't think I am cautious enough, maybe I would still have people in my life had I thought things through completely before. Meh, back to school, Focus!
Every beginning is a consequence - every beginning ends some thing.
~Paul Valer
Friday, November 19, 2010
Almost Done
So I have not had much of a chance all week to blog, I have a bit to catch up on! This week was pretty busy. Late nights in Lincoln studying, working on this machine I have to finish building, trying to do homework, and all that jazz.
So Monday was a pretty long day... I don't remember if I went to class or not, probably not though since I don't remember. :-/ Not a good thing. I will make sure I don't miss anymore the rest of the semester. I worked pretty late until about 7:30p after class and then did homework for calculus III with a friend. I didn't get back to Omaha until pretty late, I believe it was about 11:30p-ish.
Tuesday I had every intention of going to class in the morning. (This is the class I dropped earlier) I needed to pick up homework and tests that I haven't gotten back yet. I have to get there in time Tuesday morning because that is the last day of the class for the semester. I believe J and I are going up north somewhere to check out a wind turbine and it'll be an all day trip next Tuesday so that should help get me up and going early enough to make it in time for class.
Wednesday was a very long day. I had class, then I worked in the lab until about 7pm and then I took a couple friends from the lab to the last women's volleyball game there on campus. We met my dad and then watched the game, just the four of us. It was a great game, the girls won by a sweep. After the game my friends wanted to go have a couple drinks and invited me so I joined. We went to some bar called Brothers because they had $.10 wings and cheap beer that night. That was a lot of fun... The wings were super small, but good for what they were. After we ate and had a couple more drinks we went down the street a bit and crossed over to some other bar. They had a band playing. When we got there it seemed as though they were finishing up their last song so I couldn't really say if they were any good or not. I met a couple more people there, they were great. I had a really good time. That was the first time in quite a while that I went out with people and had such a good time.
Thursday same story... Went to class and then worked until about 5:30p. I got home and talked one of my best friends into going to see a movie. We went and saw Unstoppable. It was pretty good. I am not a home-body at all so I would go out and do just about anything every night just to not be home. So considering that, this week has been great because I have been home just enough to sleep. This is how it has always been for me so it's nice to get back into a routine like that.
Today was a pretty long day as well. I had class all day, then I went and worked in the lab for only a couple hours. I had to work at the hospital tonight at 7p-11p. I got back home about 5:40p-ish, jumped in the shower, threw some clothes on and then went in to work. We were pretty steady tonight, not too bad though.
Tomorrow should be quite nice! I work my usual 7a-3p and then I'm free for a couple hours. I am signed up to volunteer for the salvation army and do bell ringing at one of the stores in town. That should be fun. I talked my friend into signing up with me since I couldn't get a good enough turn out from my Rotaract Club members. That is only for about an hour and a half and then I have a free night. This is one of the VERY FEW Saturday nights that I am not working the overnight shift so I am pretty thrilled. I asked my friend if he wanted to hang out after he got off work, but since it is Harry Potter opening weekend he is crazy busy at work so he'll probably be working all night. My next request was my sister, we'll see if she squeezes me in or not. Otherwise looks like I'll be spending the Saturday night studying and working on Calculus. That should be fun... :-/
Anyways, I'll try to do better and stay on top of stuff. It isn't much fun summarizing the week all at once. School is just so crazy right now. I wish I had just finished in Texas right away. I would never suggest to anyone to not continue full-time until completely done. Getting back into everything is just so difficult. Especially when you've experienced the real independent world, and your priorities are just so much different than the normal student.
I think I'm getting better, or maybe I'm just not stressing about it as much and its getting worse. I'm not sure which one it really is, but I guess we'll see how the semester ends up.
"To comprehend a man's life, it is necessary to know not merely what he does but also what he purposely leaves undone. There is a limit to the work that can be got out of a human body or a human brain, and he is a wise man who wastes no energy on pursuits for which he is not fitted; and he is still wiser who, from among the things he can do well, chooses and resolutely follows the best."
-William Gladstone
So Monday was a pretty long day... I don't remember if I went to class or not, probably not though since I don't remember. :-/ Not a good thing. I will make sure I don't miss anymore the rest of the semester. I worked pretty late until about 7:30p after class and then did homework for calculus III with a friend. I didn't get back to Omaha until pretty late, I believe it was about 11:30p-ish.
Tuesday I had every intention of going to class in the morning. (This is the class I dropped earlier) I needed to pick up homework and tests that I haven't gotten back yet. I have to get there in time Tuesday morning because that is the last day of the class for the semester. I believe J and I are going up north somewhere to check out a wind turbine and it'll be an all day trip next Tuesday so that should help get me up and going early enough to make it in time for class.
Wednesday was a very long day. I had class, then I worked in the lab until about 7pm and then I took a couple friends from the lab to the last women's volleyball game there on campus. We met my dad and then watched the game, just the four of us. It was a great game, the girls won by a sweep. After the game my friends wanted to go have a couple drinks and invited me so I joined. We went to some bar called Brothers because they had $.10 wings and cheap beer that night. That was a lot of fun... The wings were super small, but good for what they were. After we ate and had a couple more drinks we went down the street a bit and crossed over to some other bar. They had a band playing. When we got there it seemed as though they were finishing up their last song so I couldn't really say if they were any good or not. I met a couple more people there, they were great. I had a really good time. That was the first time in quite a while that I went out with people and had such a good time.
Thursday same story... Went to class and then worked until about 5:30p. I got home and talked one of my best friends into going to see a movie. We went and saw Unstoppable. It was pretty good. I am not a home-body at all so I would go out and do just about anything every night just to not be home. So considering that, this week has been great because I have been home just enough to sleep. This is how it has always been for me so it's nice to get back into a routine like that.
Today was a pretty long day as well. I had class all day, then I went and worked in the lab for only a couple hours. I had to work at the hospital tonight at 7p-11p. I got back home about 5:40p-ish, jumped in the shower, threw some clothes on and then went in to work. We were pretty steady tonight, not too bad though.
Tomorrow should be quite nice! I work my usual 7a-3p and then I'm free for a couple hours. I am signed up to volunteer for the salvation army and do bell ringing at one of the stores in town. That should be fun. I talked my friend into signing up with me since I couldn't get a good enough turn out from my Rotaract Club members. That is only for about an hour and a half and then I have a free night. This is one of the VERY FEW Saturday nights that I am not working the overnight shift so I am pretty thrilled. I asked my friend if he wanted to hang out after he got off work, but since it is Harry Potter opening weekend he is crazy busy at work so he'll probably be working all night. My next request was my sister, we'll see if she squeezes me in or not. Otherwise looks like I'll be spending the Saturday night studying and working on Calculus. That should be fun... :-/
Anyways, I'll try to do better and stay on top of stuff. It isn't much fun summarizing the week all at once. School is just so crazy right now. I wish I had just finished in Texas right away. I would never suggest to anyone to not continue full-time until completely done. Getting back into everything is just so difficult. Especially when you've experienced the real independent world, and your priorities are just so much different than the normal student.
I think I'm getting better, or maybe I'm just not stressing about it as much and its getting worse. I'm not sure which one it really is, but I guess we'll see how the semester ends up.
"To comprehend a man's life, it is necessary to know not merely what he does but also what he purposely leaves undone. There is a limit to the work that can be got out of a human body or a human brain, and he is a wise man who wastes no energy on pursuits for which he is not fitted; and he is still wiser who, from among the things he can do well, chooses and resolutely follows the best."
-William Gladstone
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